This is absolutely the most aimless post of my blog. I know. Because I neither have any subject in my mind, nor I have any inspirational incident happened in my life so that I can pen it down before it rubs out of my memory. NO ! absolutely nothing..
Its not like there is nothing happening in my life. There are so many interesting things happening, I have read many interesting book in past few days. But I just do not have slightest piece of enthusiasm to write anything about it. I wonder why is it so? Can I not write down whatever thought come and go in my mind? nope that’s not true. I have always written whenever and whatever thought crosses my mind. I could not stop that ‘urge’ to write them down in past. Then why is it not the case now a days? Have I not remained that sensitive person like I was before? I don’t think so. I still get ‘ganga-yamuna’ in my eyes watching dumbest senti scene in movies or even reality shows just like before. I get same offended when I make silly mistakes while talking, cooking, studying etc. Yes I am just the same craziest sensitive person like I was, before this so called writer’s block hit me hard.. Then what the hell is stopping me to write any bull**** I want?
I dunno ! I think this monologue is helping me to at least de-clutter the thoughts and clean up some of the memory drawers in my brain. yeah.. I always feel there are numerous drawers in our brain. Each of them have files or documents related to one thing. When any one of the thing gets triggered in our mind (may be due to some situations, incidents ) , the other files, documents related to that scenario in that drawer gets pulled up and you get big time nostalgia-quake. Yup, memorable (in bad or good way) incidences fall from upper racks to your mind like the things from compartments in our house fall when a biiiig earthquake hits. Wow, what an Idea !! 
I used to discover such an ideas when I was a student.Oh, every person is always a student. But what I mean here, is when I was(read: my parents were) actually paying for that study. I used to write down those ideas in just couple of lines in my diary. Very abstract.. If someone happened to read those lines, would never tell what those lines were about. Well, that person can be even me after 15 days ! 
But that was fun !
Actually looking in the past reminds me that I was never a diary-writer. I always got awesome marks and remarks on my Essays in schools. I could write anything of any length on any topic. But when my friend , Manasi, told me to write a diary, I was sure that I will not be able to write that. May be that has got something to do with my nature. Sadly, I am not a retrospective person. [ hmm that's not a good thing. Can't help. I always get fascinated by the things that "might" happen in future. Or I will get sad/happy for the things in past. But I will never sit down and think about whatever mistakes I did in past to rectify them in Present ! That's so weird.. And still, everything happened the best way I wanted, as if I had worked hard to achieve them.. ! funny.. ] Okay so back to writing. What I was saying is I was never a ‘present-person’. Always thinking about either past or future. How could I write a diary which basically means you have to write about things happening in current life ! I always wrote what I am gonna do in future, or what I did/did not in past. That’s so strange. No wonder I write more nostalgic stuff ! I think this is what is happening. I guess there are no more nostalgic things remained now so that I can pen them down , publically. I will either have to move to fiction or, finally in current, present state of mind.
Having been writing for almost 3 years , I think, has made me think seriously about writing. For first time in my life I am getting really serious about something. uh, don’t get me wrong here. I am not self-appreciating or boasting here. What I mean by serious about writing is that, I know now for sure I have that ‘urge’ for writing. I have not written anything on my blog since March mid. Not even in my personal diary. But all this time, I could not deny that urge for writing in me. Since this blog started , I always wrote anything that comes in my mind. ( ‘ektaaki likhan’ in marathi) But I guess its not very good thing to always write like that. To begin writing this technique is good. But to develop writing, nope! I have been reading some awesome writers past few years. And I definitely would love if I can achieve 0.1% of their writing skills! So I now need to develop the skills to write more seriously. I think I can at least try. I know I am not very good writer. But I can try to be one. And that’s why, I would not like now to write anything, everything that comes in my mind.
hmm.. I guessing I am making things lil tough for me by writing this. Because I cannot write my best in just one day. I have raised my expectations in this post but it is probable that I will write very ordinary and even again nostalgic in next post! 
I will need some time, some rough work to be done, and then probably, one day, I will write neat. Let’s see.
At least, this rambling did something good.
So, was this an aimless post for me? Guess not..
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